Assalamualaikum and Selamat sejahtera you alls!! Time flies so fast. Rasa tak puas lagi di tahun-tahun yang sudah. Life must go on somehow. As for now i manage to work out at least once a week. Ok laaa kan better than nothing. And yet so far i did not check on my latest weight. Because i don’t feel that im losing much but maybe a few inch lost. It is not easy i suppose. After a few years my weight 68kg and stagnant. Now still the same i guess because i still feel sama je. So i decided to just stay positive and focus to work out not losing weight but to stay healthy. Nak jaga jantung, nak jaga cholestrol and semualah. Yearly medical check up for full body pun i ada buat jugak. All is well alhamdulillah. Fikir nak sihat je ni sha allah will do my best.
Lately my soul is feeling a bit sad and feeling lost. Sometimes sad sometimes happy. Tak boleh nak gembira sangat. Tengah makan pun teringat mereka ni. Apalah dosa mereka anak-anak kecil dan orang tua yang lemah. Because of the war that everyone knows about it and we all can only see and pray for them. Yang pasti mereka adalah insan terpilih. But still watching the kids suffer my heart wrench. I think semua orang pun feel the same way too. Sometime bila i terfikir all of this, no matter what u do, no matter how successful u are and rich u are, when you are losing the people you love, i feel like losing everything. Losing yourself and all. Everything that we had or even status is Nothing. No meaning at all. Only love and prayers for them that we all could do and hoping miracle happen. May all of our prayers is answered. I think its time semua manusia bersatu hati. Tak kiralah negara mana atau bangsa apa pun.
Apalah daya kita. Walau menangis sampai lelah. Langkah menjadi lemah. Hanya Allah swt tempat mengadu dan bergantung. Semoga ada cahaya bagi mereka semua yang dalam kesusahan. Semoga cepat peperangan ini berakhir. Semoga ada yang bela nasib mereka. Sedih dan penat tengok keadaan mereka di sana. Semoga kita juga tidak putus-putus doakan mereka. Kita saksi yang melihat their starvation, surviving, bertahan demi hidup. Allahuakbar. Sakit rasa dalam hati ni. Mereka hanya cuba bertahan dan mempertahankaan hak mereka. I can’t imagine just put ourself on their shoes and just ambil sedetik masa dan seketika untuk selami perasaan mereka. Losing their parent and all. Sedih sangat-sangat dan kecewa. Still, apalah daya kita nak melawan mereka ni. Semoga Allah bantu mereka ini ya Allah swt. Hurtful.. Heart breaking after breaking. Kemurungan. Semoga semuanya berakhir dengan cepat.
Kita disini sesama manusia hari ini. Cemburu tak payah cakaplah. Mengata, mengumpat, menjatuhkan sesama sendiri. It happen to me too though. To stay positive is to surround myself dengan kawan-kawan yang best. Tak de kawan pun tak pe lah. Lantak pi orang nak cakap apa, asalkan kita happy dan kita tak kacau orang lain pun. Biarlah orang buat kita. Kita pulak jangan sama level dengan mereka-mereka yang negative ni. Buat hal sendiri lagi bagus. People come and go also. Dari sudut pandangan yang positive pula. Orang-orang yang macam ni laa buat kita lagi strong. So, chill je and trust the process. Janji Allah itu pasti.
There is so much to say here. Nanti sambung ok.
TBC.
Lot of love
Me
^_^
nota kaki: ‘terbanglah setinggi mana pun, usah lupa selalu tunduk kebawah!’
